Name: The Diamond (If)
Duration: P00H07M22S
Description: A song of impending self-destruction and being torn between murder and keeping a life. Keeping, that is, if destroyed, the joy of the murder would only happen once. "I will never forgive the things you've done. And, I will never forget, how hard I’ve run, from this..."

The Diamond (If)

from Control Alter Deplete by Modal Citizan

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A song of impending self-destruction and being torn between murder and keeping a life. Keeping, that is, if destroyed, the joy of the murder would only happen once. "I will never forgive the things you've done. And, I will never forget, how hard I’ve run, from this..."

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I will never forgive the things you’ve done.
And, I will never forget, how hard I’ve run, from this.

Your brimstone words broke me, to ground.
When once my queen, (now) emptied – no crown.

I’ve run this curse you gave me – to ground.
And you deserve nothing…
But sickness and death…

And I can only run so far,
and so fast from this.

And everything has been so hard,
I’ve lost my soul in this.

(instrumental)

And I can only run so far!
And so fast from this!

And everything has been so hard!
I’ve lost my soul in this!

And if I had my way,
I’d wring you dead!

Or force your neck to the chopping block!
And hack your body to pieces ‘for I took your head!

Force your neck to the chopping block,
And hack your body to pieces ‘for I took your head…

In my dreams,
I’ve killed you a million times…

But, in reality, I’ve reason to keep you alive.

You see, if I kill you I cannot kill you again!
And, that’s a diamond, I am not willing to spend.

If I kill you I cannot kill you again!
And, that’s a diamond, I am not willing to spend.

If I kill you I cannot kill you again?

(repeat forever)
If I kill you I cannot kill you again?!

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from Control Alter Deplete, released November 11, 2020
Mixed and Mastered by Ryan Kali Jones

Ryan Kali Jones (Composer/Vocals/Synths)
Adam Fueston (Guitars)
Shaun Waff (Bass Guitar)

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Modal Citizan Virginia Beach, Virginia

We are Modal Citizan - an Alternative/Rock group based out of Virginia Beach, Virginia. Our music has several influences from the 90’s, but has an extremely unique feel. There is a story. A story of life and death. Tragedy. Hate and sadness. Pain and resolve. ... more

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